yea, i'm leaving here for a while. i sent notes to people telling them where i'll be. good bye, it was fun here while it lasted and thanks to everyone for the watches, comments, and favs.

..And life has officially gone down the shitter.

my best friend betrays me...and she's right to do it. i am just a depressant. i cant wait til her and her bf break up and shes left alone with nothing but her memories. its amazing how someone who you thought you could trust and was your best friend can become your worst enemy so quickly.
the fuckers in anatomy are ignoring me. i thought they were my friends, but i guess they were just being nice to me b/c the didnt wanna piss my other friend off. they want her so bad its sick.
my therapist is pushing Zoloft on me. i thought i could talk to him, but he just wants to get more $$ out of my folks.
my former friend's bf...i dont want him to feel bad for me. and its wrong b/c i dont wanna turn him against my former friend.
my other friend, Julia, i can talk to her but she doesnt help me out like my other friend did.
my friend mandy has her own problems and i dont want her to get involved b/c shes friends with my former friend.
my friend maggie....shes too wrapped up in boys and she's clueless.
my family is sick of hearing about my shit. i wish they'd commit me to the mental hospital. then i wouldnt be such a burden.

all in all, i have no one to talk to. joy to the fucking world.

our comps are still fucked up. the scanner broke again. sorry if i owe you something and its really late. please be patient. thanks

i woke up this morning...and realized that i have a hole within me. this hole was stabbed through me by a person who shall remain nameless. i am no longer as important to someone as they are to me. i no longer have someone leaning on me as i lean on them, creating a nice balance. when you've had this wonderful balance in your life for 7 years and then its suddenly snatched from you...the hurt and devistation left behind is unbearable. my therapist says i should try to move on....but i cant. i just cant do it. i want things to go back but i know they cant. ugh it just sucks. plain sucks ass. meh i'm sure non of you wanna hear this B.S. i have a bunch of pics, i just cant upload them....the computers are still fucked up.

toodles

yea, im miserable at the moment. school is even more unbearable than i thought it could ever be. uhhh lets see i feel like my head is about to explode everyday and my stomach feels like its being ripped out by oh lets say.....arc angels. i have no fucking clue. i gotta lot of art i wanna post, but the comps are still screwed over. well i'm gonna go draw some more dismemberment. you stay classy san diego

i'm sick of friends...fuckin backstabbers that they are